Watching As Your Sillhouette Fades

some things are just said too many a time but yet still not quite enough. we hear it so often that we think little of it. told to us by different people, it's as repeated as a broken record... but alas! some things need to be experienced by oneself, in order for one to not know, but FEEL its true meaning...

...ok wtf i sound weird talking so deep... but what im talking about is the whole "*blank blank* till its gone" thing... "you never know what you got till its gone", "you never truly appreciate something till its gone" etc etc. yeah it sounds corny and cliched, probably even overused, but hey, honestly, i daresay majority of us has been in an eff-ed up situation like that. and when reality hits you, it hits you so damn hard, you realize its too late. it always is aint it? well life sucks-balls that way. be a man and suck it in, bitches.

sometimes, we KNOW it. we know when a good thing's leaving or when something's going the wrong way, but being the idiots we are, we know we've pushed it that far, and so we idiotically try to push it THAT much further, only to have pushed it off the cliff entirely. and that when the "Oh F***!"-'s, should really be replaced with "F*** myself".

when "...till its gone" happens, its really never a good thing, and its 11/10 times OUR own fault, our own doing. stupid us and our g-damn big egos? hell yeah... despite, it still hurts. like a chokeslam on concrete, or a punch in the face, a dagger thru your gut, poison thru your veins... well you get my drift. (:

as usual... i really dont know where im getting at but yeah. though its been said time and again, people, dont wait for a wake up call, open your eyes and SEE - not just look, at whats in front of you, take time to ponder upon the little things and the details of everything, your loved ones right there in front of your bloody faces, notice the every tiny thing they do, sacrifice they make, word they say, emotions they feel. in the end, it really does add up, and they all matter. learn to see that. and do something about it.

oh and ps: stop pushing it.

~ Meet Me Halfway - Black Eyed Peas
* My Life. My World. Shades of Black.