Keeping my promise

I really thought i could hold it in.
I really thought i was finally strong enough.
and then came today.
the disappointment in myself.
the frustration i feel.
and then you weren't there.
and i thought of him again.
i tried.
i really did.
its the last time im gonna break down.
because of him.
no, because its plainly a bad day.
i really need you to understand me, please.
it'll all be better tmr...
i promise.

~ Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik
* My Life. My World. Shades of Black.