Messed up...

I'm Esther...

i love eating;
but now i puke every time i try to...

i love lying on my bed, rolling around till i fall asleep;
but now i can barely close my eyes for an hour each night...

i self medicate when i get sick to lessen the suffering;
but now i just let my gastric and fever be...

i hate zombies and horror stuffs;
but now i play Left For Dead...

i love being loud, talking a lot and letting loose;
but now i sit at alone at home, plastering on a smile...

i got flooded with emotions and colours around me;
but now i'm just dull, empty and numb...

I'm Esther...
and im this messed up now, because of you.

~ Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon
* My Life. My World. Shades of Black.